Wednesday, April 06, 2011

Lives Within a Life

I do not believe in reincarnation...but I do believe we live many lives within this one fragile life we have been given.

In my 45 years on this earth, I have been many different people.

A baby known as "the non thriving one" who became the "foster one" who then became the "adopted one".

The adopted one who became the possession of an odd menagerie of other "adopted ones" mashed into one unit called "family".

Finally grown, I left the mashed adopted family unit and became the "American girl" who lived on a tiny island in Holland. I was the "foreigner who became Urkish."

Later, I moved to college in Minnesota and became "the college girl".

Then later, the "young married girl" who married her college friend.

I was "the nanny" of a beautiful baby girl who grew into an adorable little girl.

I was a "Minnesotan".

Fleeing the harsh winters of Minnesota I drove to the Northwest and became a "Washingtonian".

I searched, found, embraced and became "the found one" when I reconnected with my birth family.

I discovered, rejected and became the "divorced one" when I discovered the one I loved--was busy "loving" multiple others.

so many lives...too many to list...

now I am living a life I do not wish to lose.

I do not wish to change.

I am Mom. Lover. Friend. Daughter.

But life moves forward.

Endlessly forward...

Until it stops.