Two days of confinement have passed and I do not yet strain at my tethers.
A true sign of being very ill, to be sure.
Thank you all for your well wishes.
I do, indeed, feel much better although still very fragile.
I've learned I cannot walk and talk at the same time.
Well I say "walk" when I really mean the thing I do when shuffling my slipper clad feet across the floor from my bedroom to the bathroom and on to the sofa.
I do believe the week I spent with EWO took something vital out of me and this is my minds way of making myself lay quietly and repair the marks she lay open inside of me.
I cannot continue to do this.
I made a vow that I will not ever attend to her again for that amount of time without having a safe haven to retreat to.
In my home I can turn my face into Lord V's and my friends embraces to hide, and revitalize and re-engergize.
I am no longer the "tough" person I had to be to survive growing up.
Being surrounded by loving friends both in blogland, my clan of friends close by me and my Lord V and our sweet little family--I have gentled and can no longer fling up the iron barriers against the ugliness that was my past.
Tis a good thing. A wonderous thing.
And something that I must teach myself to keep around me at all times instead of trying to face things alone.
And I thank you. All. For this amazing gift.
8 years ago