Friday, April 16, 2010

I am Proud...

I know this is going to sound terrible.

But I don't care.

I no longer care.

And that, a major break through for me.

I did not pick up EWO at the airport.

I did not call her the night she arrived.

I did not call her the next day either.

My phone finally rang in the evening.

EWO was hesitant and talking like she was stepping on egg shells with me.

She did not know how to handle me. How to manipulate me.

I had changed the rules.

She gently pried...laying out traps in which to snare me into taking her into my home. Into feeling obligated and guilty so that I would drive her around and entertain her while she was in my city.

Slow drips of poison that I saw coming and stepped away from.

She will be here 3 weeks.

I will not see her until the 3rd week and only then so I can give her friend a break.

I have broken the hold.

I have begun walking the path that will remove her from my life.

She's had 44 years of me.

Its time to say enough.


jade said...

I actually did this with dad when he said he would run away if he went to the retirement home. I didnt answer phone (i always do,anytime of day)
The next day I did & he was choking back the tears. Sometimes you have to get angry.

Haphazardkat said...

So true. Even when it goes against my nature.
*sending hugs* cuz I know you are still in the thick of things...

terri said...

Love the strength and growth, Kat. Nicely played. :)

Laoch of Chicago said...

A lot of controlling manipulative people are excellent game players. The only real solution to dealing with them is to refuse to play. Stay strong - fight the emotional black hole.

Cindy said...

I am very proud of you!

The Darker Side said...

I know how hard it is.......
The X was a master...
You should be VERY proud!
I am very proud of you!